Last weekend, I FINALLY got a new TV. It is sweet as hell. It is a Toshiba 32" HDTV Monitor. The picture is sweeeeeet. I can finally play my games and watch my DVD's without squinting. My wife isn't too thrilled about it because of the money we spent. Hopefully, once it is paid off, she will be more comfortable with it.

You see, she doesn't like the fact that I am materialistic. Here is the definition for materialism that I got from dictionary.com:

ma·te·ri·al·ism Pronunciation Key (m-tîr--lzm)
n.

1. Philosophy. The theory that physical matter is the only reality and that everything, including thought, feeling, mind, and will, can be explained in terms of matter and physical phenomena.
2. The theory or attitude that physical well-being and worldly possessions constitute the greatest good and highest value in life.
3. A great or excessive regard for worldly concerns.


Wow.. I am not THAT bad. I mean yes, I like to have my "toys", but they aren't my greatest joy in life. If I had a choice between having everything I want while being complete alone, or having nothing I want but not being alone, I would choose not being alone. When I was single, I was able to get more things, but I was miserable. Yeah, that new game was a lot of fun, or that old Star Wars toy that was now sitting on my shelf brought a smile to my face, but when I went to bed at night, I was alone, and I didn't like it.

I am spoiled. I will admit that. I generally get whatever I want, even when I have to wait awhile. Let's see, I wanted a PS2, and I got it. I wanted a DVD player, and I got it. I wanted an HDTV, and I got it. If there is a new game out there I want, I generally get it. All that will change now. Since I got this TV, I will have to learn that I can't always get what I want from now on. This includes small things, like DVD's or action figures to decorate my walls or cubicle with, to large things, like a Nintendo Gamecube or a Progressive Scan DVD player. It is time that I concentrate on 2 things other than myself.

The first thing I will concentrate on is bill paying and reducing our debt. This is very important for both of us, since the more our debts our decreased, the more money we will have available to us, and we can then do things like more to a new apartment, save for a house, and also start a family.

The second, and in a way, more important than the first, is concentrating on things that my wife wants. We are always too focused on me, and it is time that we change that. If she wants something, she should get it. This includes everything from books, makeup(she just ran out of something she called foundation.. whatever that is.. lol), games(she found a game she likes!!!), gadgets for the kitchen, CD's, and even one of those digital cameras or camcorders she has her eye on. I just got a new TV, and she definitely deserves anything she wants now. It is only fair. She shouldn't have to ask me if we have enough money for her to buy a book when I go out and buy a new game. I should be the other way around, and from now on, it will be.

So, will this be a tough change? Of course. Right now, I can bring up a whole list of games, DVD's, game consoles, CD's, books, and other things I want. I will have to get used to the fact that I will have to wait awhile for these things, and that they will be a low priority in our lives. I will extend this to stuff like clothes too. Instead of picking up expensive tshirts and sweaters at places like Meier & Frank, I will have to go to places like Wal Mart and Old Navy(someone once told me they thought Old Navy was expensive.. HA!).

In the end, I am hoping we will both be happier. She will get what she wants, I will get what I want, just not as soon as I wanted them. I will have to learn to be patient, and to be more satisfied with what I do have, so that I will not immediately begin thinking about what I want next(or if I do, I will more quiet about it). I will not change who I am, nor will I say I will never get what I want. I do not feel that this makes me a bad person.

Oh.. I am going to add a ton of links soon. Not like anyone really visits this anyway.